How do I trust people again and keep going after my husband asked me to leave, my mom passed, I was homeless, and I drank a bottle of vodka a day? My mom tried to drown me and my dad played Russian roulette with me when I was a child; how can God bring good from it like He did with Joseph in Genesis? Is my relationship repairable with my alcoholic partner? I want to know more about having discernment and secure attachment; where do I begin?