How do I get over my divorce 20yrs ago and stop blaming myself? I married my drug dealer who was physically abusive and cheated on me after we got married. What should I do to stop swearing when I’m mad? I am disabled from three major accidents and swear when I’m mad at myself. My husband of 25yrs has a foot fetish that I don’t think is appropriate, and I’ve developed an alcohol addiction to numb myself. How do I improve my relationship with my oldest son who blames me for getting a divorce? My alcoholic ex-husband had started to become a better man when he died of cardiac arrest.