September is Suicide Prevention Awareness Month, and I have complicated feelings about it.
When you’ve lost someone to suicide, the conversation around awareness and prevention can feel very different.
Especially when you were close enough to the struggle to have asked questions, had hard conversations, and still be the person left trying to make sense of the loss.
This episode is an honest conversation about what this month feels like from the other side of suicide loss, the language we use around it, and what I wish more people understood about the people left behind.
If you know someone who has lost someone to suicide, check on them this month. Sometimes you don’t need the right words. You just need to remember them, too.
Content note: This episode discusses suicide, suicide loss and grief.
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My first guest had to be Andre. He's six, has a lot to say, and apparently knows a lot more about my life than I realized. We talked about what he thinks I actually do for work, me traveling and being away, why Mommy goes to the gym, kindergarten, making good choices, and the kind of man I hope I'm raising him to become. We talked about respecting boundaries, protecting people you love, and why I want him to be the boy who holds other boys accountable too.
And then we went places I wasn't entirely expecting.
Andre talked about his dad. The things he remembers, the things he misses, and even his memory of the last morning Michael dropped him off at school. We talked about Michael's alcoholism, the two and a half years of sobriety we are incredibly proud of him for, and what it looks like to let our kids remember all of their dad, not just how his story ended.
And because apparently nothing is off limits when your six-year-old gets a microphone, we also talked about me dating again.

There are dance breaks. There are very serious six-year-old opinions. There are moments that made me laugh and moments that completely caught me off guard.
This is our life, according to Andre. And I think this might be my favorite episode yet.

My FIRST guest to Not My Timeline is officially here and it's my six-year-old son, Andre.

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Fourteen years in the event industry, and I can honestly say I never built my career by “networking.”
I built it by making friends.
In this episode, I’m talking about how I went from venue sales to private planning, what working on both sides of the industry taught me, and the relationships that ultimately changed my career. The people I once looked at as industry icons became the people I call when I need help, the people I trust with my clients, and eventually, the people who showed up for me when my life completely fell apart.
We talk about learning that I deserved to be in the room, why I’m incredibly transparent with my clients about money, the freedom that comes from working with vendors you genuinely trust, and why I’ve learned to say no to opportunities that don’t feel right. Including, yes, saying no to Snoop Dogg.
This episode is really about something bigger than events. Stop walking into rooms asking what someone can do for your career. Be yourself. Make actual friends. Build relationships with people you would still want in your life if there were absolutely no business attached.
Because looking back, that has probably been the single most important thing I’ve done for my career.

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What does it actually look like to leave your kids for 3 weeks when you’re their only living parent, while also knowing that your career requires you to get on the plane?

In this episode, I’m taking you behind the scenes of my most recent work trip. How I prepare my kids before I leave, how we stay connected while I’m gone, the guilt that still shows up, and what we do as a family to reconnect and reset when I finally get home.But this trip was bigger than just work.

I was asked to speak on a national panel about parenthood in the event industry, and for the first time in a room full of my peers, I said out loud that I lost my husband to suicide. I talked about becoming a solo parent, navigating significant loss while continuing to build my career, and the very complicated reality of being incredibly proud of the life I’ve built while also acknowledging what it took to get here.
There was a lot of networking. A lot of career highs. A lot of missing my kids. And a moment after the stage I don’t think I could have been ready for.

This episode is about what it actually looks like to keep showing up. For my kids, for my career, and somewhere along the way, learning how to show up for myself too.

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Trigger Warning: This episode discusses domestic abuse, alcoholism, suicide, and grief. If you or someone you know needs help, please contact suicide prevention here and domestic violence here.This is the hardest part of my story to tell.I’m sharing the truth about my marriage to Michael: the love that existed alongside domestic abuse and alcoholism, the boundaries I had to set, his decision to get sober, and ultimately, the day he took his life.I walk through that day, the impossible conversation of telling our children their dad was gone, and what the first two years of grief actually looked like.But this episode is also about what came after. Learning to carry complicated grief, raise my children through their own loss, find myself again, and eventually learn how to love the person I became on the other side of it.

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We are jumping in with two feet and covering real timelines. Today we will talk about the numbers and budget transparency of a real $1.25 million wedding budget for 215 guests, a Northern California resort, and every dollar accounted for. I walk through where the money actually went: $300K on florals, $124K on entertainment, six-figure photo and video teams, and why I tell couples to triple their food and beverage estimate post-COVID. If you're planning a high-end event (or just love seeing the real numbers behind the magic), this one's for you.

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I've spent my career designing perfect timelines for other people's biggest days. But nothing prepared me for the day my own timeline shattered when I became a solo parent to my two young children after my husband died by suicide.

In this debut episode, I pull back the curtain on the parts of my story I used to hide behind a smile: a marriage marked by domestic violence and alcoholism, the exhausting pursuit of a "perfect" life, and the moment I had to explain my husband's death to my kids. I open up about grieving while showing up for my children, returning to work in an industry built on celebration while carrying my own loss, and how letting go of perfection helped me find something better: authenticity.

This is the start of Not My Timeline, a space for honest, unscripted conversations about weddings, grief, solo parenting, and dating. No polish. No perfect bow. Just the truth