Play it as it lays by Joan Didion - What the hell is wrong with you? You know what? You actually love being this way. Why can't you just be, normal? I want to understand but don't repeat the same shit again. Please. You, god damn, you are the fucking problem!! Nothing else. Not the world, not other people, you and the mess you create in your head. Does it sound familiar? There are times when you feel guilty. For feeling what you are feeling. Wondering what is wrong with you! Till it doesn't. Till Numbness takes over. And you aren't even sure if you are alive.