When I began shadow work, I wasn’t met with clarity or fire — I was met with numbness, and beneath it, shame. In this episode, I share how my first step into the shadows began not with a breakthrough, but with a decision to stop pretending and start listening to my body.

We talk about the freeze response, how numbness can live in the body, and why the path to thawing isn’t force, but presence. I share my own journey of joining a sexuality program while feeling broken, the resistance and imposter syndrome that came with it, and the slow, quiet shifts that followed.

If you’ve ever felt disconnected from your body, silenced your truth, or believed you were beyond repair, this episode offers an honest look at how transformation often begins in the smallest, most invisible ways — and why pain can be a portal, not a punishment.