Being humiliated and having my confidentiality broken to a whole place. It brought anger that I never felt. Instead of lashing out or treating those individuals the same way they treated me. I disappeared to only heal to also figure out what I should do or handle this situation. In my past I have lashed out and I have hurt others who didn’t deserve it. I took accountability even if it was difficult. The shame, the guilt I carried for years. I am not perfect, but I do choose to be real, authentic and take accountability for my mistakes. People treated me in ways I would never have treated them. I did speak up to not only help myself, but to also help others. Is it hard for me to trust people, yes, and does it still hurt, yes. Even though I am in a better place now. I still have a lot of healing to do. My health which was confidential was broken and shared without my permission. I was harassed and bullied by individuals who were my supervisors. They violated HIPPA and my privacy, they also broke several federal laws. I can’t forgive them, maybe eventually I will, but for right now I only forgive myself. Maybe that is selfish, but I will guard and protect myself. This is something they will have to live with, and be haunted by. You had every chance to make amends and apologize, but your distance and silenced said it all. It’s too late now to take back what was done. God saw it all, only God knows how much this destroyed me. I will never try to be perfect but I won’t change myself because you don’t like me and you hate me with all your heart. That’s a you problem, not mine, I gave you nothing but respect and I don’t regret anything I did, expect for a few things I said and trusting you. Those are the only things I regret. You will be forever a stranger to me. 

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