Patterns of yesterday

I used to look forward to falling in love,

but now i am totally scared.

Cause no one i was ever in love with before

deeply and genuinely cared

Yet if I am honest, neither did I,

as long as they stayed in my lane

as long as i didn’t feel all by myself

slowly, i was going insane.

I thought, I knew love, had it all figured out,

when really I was being obsessed

with them giving me, what i couldn’t myself

the love i could never possess.

I’m so tired,

I’m so tired,

I’m so tired,

tonight.

Now that I’m finally here for myself,

Now that i do understand,

I’m not so sure, i know love anymore

All that I did was pretend.

Now there you are and I’m falling for you

little by little each day

and little by little I’m terrified too

of the patterns of yesterday

I’m so tired,

I’m so tired,

I’m so tired,

tonight.

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