Whats the meaning for pause?

 

a temporary stop

 

Definition of pause(Entry 1 of 2) 1 : a temporary stop. 2a : a break in a verse. b : a brief suspension of the voice to indicate the limits and relations of sentences and their parts. 3 : temporary inaction especially as caused by uncertainty : hesitation.

 

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thank you for tuning in to victorious

and recovery

well the week has been going better

i finally got not just moved in but

settled in emotionally to

the new place and

i think uh

it had a lot to do with that um my last

episode i was

mentioning how hard of a time i was

having

and

you know sometimes i i guess it just

takes a minute

to get used to places new places and new

people

and for me personally getting used to

having to interact with a new set of

people is is an adjustment

so

in preparation this week i've been

reading a book

to help me start working the sixth and

seventh step once i

finish with the fifth step with my

sponsor

and it's an a book called drop the rock

it's got a lot of

good stuff in it so far i think it's a

it's a much needed thing because

in the other books it doesn't

doesn't give a lot of guidance

for

step six and seven

at least not that i found very useful

and

this book breaks a few things down for

me which i really like and

i wanted to read a little bit from that

book and give you my take on it

on the

third page

the first paragraph says regardless of

what little i know about being different

i must first ask am i willing to believe

that i can be made different

it is important to remember

that step 6 doesn't say became entirely

ready to make myself different

it says we're entirely ready to have god

remove all these defects of character

god not me

makes me different by giving me what it

takes

to change

it is my job

to act

and behave like the change has occurred

in doing this the process of change

happens

and it frequently involves emotional

pain

the pain of living the way i have been

becomes greater than the fear of change

and there's there's a lot there

but the part that i really like is where

it says it is my job to act and behave

like the change has occurred

and that to me sounds a lot like the

fake it till you make it slogan

and that one always set

weird with me because you know i don't

want to be fake right

i don't want to feel like an imposter i

don't want to feel like i'm

trying to be something that i'm not

but at the same time

if i'm being really honest i want to be

something that i'm not

and so i've always battled with that you

know at what point

is it

me trying to do better and at what point

is it me trying to appear to be better

than i really am

but there is one or a couple things that

i've noticed

in this battle for trying to get better

is that at some point there was a

realization

i don't know if somebody said something

or if i heard something but

it came about nonetheless that

just because my first thought

isn't always right doesn't mean i have

to act on it

and i think that's what this is talking

about here

you know i might have an initial

reaction to something

to my surroundings or to something

somebody said or

to just an abrasive

type of situation

my reaction might be impatient or it

might be cruel

my reaction might just be you know me

being rude to somebody

whatever the thought or initial feeling

is that happens inside me

doesn't have to come out though

and that's been like a best practice for

me

to take that little sliver of a moment

between thought and action between

feeling and action

and recognize that the opportunity to

pause

and say wait what do i know

i should be doing and

you know because there's a lot of times

where somebody

is asking a lot of questions or somebody

is

approaching me at a moment that's just

not a good time to approach me basically

and at that point i have i have the

options

bunch of different options one of which

is common for me to be impatient and

rude and dismiss the person

but i find that that sometimes i'm able

to take that l