I'm asking myself what I want in my vortex and who am I really. What do I want in life-truly. Peeling away the layers to find out the real me. I do want a family of my own. Not just a career. But a loving husband and a child that I will nurture. It no longer scares me to admit it. I recognise, J isn't the one to build this future with.

Maybe the right person, is around the corner, but I just piece myself together and be whole again.