dreaming down and not up, in and not outbeing a wizard is rough when you’re afraid of things that feel real because somebody shows up you cannot allow yourself to have hope of actually being the case

when you show up in dreams, Mary — it’s the sweetest feeling ever

it’s just sweet

I dreamt of you on your birthday 2025. I woke up and wrote a poem about it. I’ve kind of known you were around since then, at least in some way. That got about 50 reads that day. I’m sorry for going nuts and being mean. I’m sorry for not being able to hold the breadth of your truth, in our relationship, while expressing my own in layers. I was a single layer kind of girl back then. But I heard and felt both of yours the same.

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