One thing I commonly struggled with was separating my self-love and how they treated me. On one end, it felt like I was never enough. I never felt enough in my entire life, and the moment I was attached and felt worthy it was everything. But when I was mistreated, it felt deserved.
But I realized something. How can someone else actions determine my worth if I did my best? If I did everything in my power to make it work. I loved the relationship, I loved them as much as I could. But at a certain point, even if I didn't give it my all it would likely be the same. I would have had the same outcome. Wasn't I just delaying the inevitable? At that moment, I realized your love is determined by you, not by how they treated you.
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