Can you imagine if you truly thought that you had faith, and that you trusted in God, only to be hit so hard with a life circumstance, and realise that you actually had/have very little faith? That the rock that you thought you stood on was actually sinking sand- and it was making you sink very quickly?
It’s a very frightening place to be, and the Lord has been drawing my attention to the fact that my confidence needs to centered on Him ONLY.