Black Birdseye View - Commentary by Robin Ess

Proof: The Audio Confession of a Child Predator


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Me: I just want to tell you (motioning to James) something

James: Let her finish what she has to say. "Bunk" (what he calls my mother)

Mama: Go head.

Me: Let me say this because I don't have time.

Mama: Go head.

Me: I did not want to pop up on yal, but this is what it is now. When we came and you and I talked (addressing James) and I said that I forgive you I meant it and you know I meant it with all my spirit.

James: I know.

Me: And when Wendy called and told me it had happened to Crystal and you'd told me that it didn't happen to nobody else after I told you that, "I forgive you and now it’s all good.” I cannot…this is me now…and I know you remember…You Lied. And when you said you tried t tell Crystal and you said you could bring yourself to tell her, and I just let it go because I felt like I could understand why you could tell your daughter that….she already knew. So, from where I am standing, I am in a position where…everybody knew, and everybody pretended.

Mama: No you’re not cause everybody didn’t know.

Me: Mama, Wendy said she knew, Wendy told me that she knew.

Mama: I thought you came here to clear the air.

Me: I am clearing the air. You can’t tell me how to clear the air.

Mama: Well I can tell you.

Me: This is not me getting upset.

Mama: It’s arguing.

Me: This is not….I want to know can you see where I am coming from knowing…?

James: Robin I am only about one thing and that’s forgiving and forgiveness.

Me: You would be because you need forgiveness.

James: I’m only about forging and being forgiven.

Me: Can I ask you this.

James: I can’t undo what I have done. I can’t make history all over. I done wrong. I’m sorry, and that’s all I can do. If you forgive me you forgive me. If Crystal forgive me she forgive me. If Wendy forgive me she forgive me if Bunk me she forgive me. I can’t undo the past. I have to just let it go.

Me: I forgive you.

James: Because if I live in the past, I will be a dead man tomorrow.

Me: I forgive you.

James: I’ll be a dead man tomorrow.

Me: I forgive you.

James: You gone be a dead man tomorrow.

Me: Do you hear me? I needed to say that to you because the last forgiveness was based off of missing information.

James: Like I say, we gon just have to let it go and ask the Lord to forgive us. I spent a lifetime trying not to repeat my sins. I just cant…I can’t keep living in the past.

Me: I agree.

James: It can only destroy me, Bunk, and everybody. Crystal and all of them, they decided to move on and just let it go. Cause they know you can’t change the past. We all made mistakes. We all have done terrible terrible things. Me, you…all of us done terrible things in our lives.

Me: I aint did no terrible things.

James: Thank God you haven’t, but it’s a lot of us. I’m not the only one…I have done terrible things and I am thankful that the Lord forgave me for those things and I was able to forgive myself and the people I done to. I haven’t been a saint. I’m I’m sorry.

Mama: Robin you look good.

James: and I’m hoping you can get past all this.

Me: Me too.

Mama: I look terrible. I mean thank you, I feel like I look bad. You know, I had told Wendy to tell you that I love you.

Me: I felt like….Mama you stopped talking…..


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