https://youtu.be/gY9mo2hPgd0

this is a video I watched on YT and this discusses protagonist syndrome in a beautiful way. oh, one thing I forgot to mention in there... sometimes you not only want worse to happen to you but also put up with bad situations or others' liking and attribute it to life's flaws. then obviously there is the flip side of the coin, where you only want good thing to happen to you when you haven't even worked toward it. and if things go otherwise it causes distress to you. 

so I guess, we could try to be a bit more objective instead of being subject about things, I think this actually frees up your mental space and in doing so gives you space for the things you'd want to fill it up with.