The mind is a terrible thing to waste by focusing on your abuser. If God, has delivered you why should you be bound by self inflicted wounds and/or abuse. Free yourself from abuse. You are Gods chosen vessel you don't have to accept the attacks of the enemy. 

Allow God to heal you from people; self inflicted abuse meaning stop abusing yourself. 

 Psalm 42:11 Why art thou cast down, O my soul? And why art thou disquieted within me? Hope thou in God; For I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.