My husband (Josh) and I just got back from my first real vacation in over 6 years- a week in San Francisco and the surrounding area. Almost 50 miles walked, Muir Woods, Sausalito, Big Sur, Carmel, and probably more pastries than I'd eaten all year.

I'm 23 weeks pregnant, up almost 20 pounds this year, and somehow in the best relationship with my body and mind I've ever had. No guilt. No shame. No "I'll fix it Monday."

That's what this episode is really about.

I get personal in this one. I pull back the curtain on the stuff you may not know about me: the years of restriction, the secret bingeing, the chasing lean at any cost, and how I dug my way out. If you've ever looked at someone in this space and assumed they've got it all figured out, this is the other side of that story.

In this episode:

• A small trip recap
• Eating all the pastries with intention instead of a "last hurrah"
• Gaining almost 20 pounds this year and appreciating & trusting my body more than ever
• Secret candy bags as a kid and Hydroxycut as a teenager
• Not eating a lot and doing cardio, hungover in college, and wondering why nothing changed
• The dozen bagels I bought for the office and ate at my desk
• The Paleo cult years: half an apple, almond-flour rules, and still demonizing food
• Getting the leanest I'd ever been, losing my period, and being completely miserable
• The move to Hungary that forced me to slow down and face myself
• Hiring my own coach, what I was scared of, and what actually changed
• Why I coach the way I do now: regulation, nervous system, emotions, and functional health

If any of this hit home, I'd love to hear from you. Send me your questions, tell me what landed, or reach out if you're ready for support in building a different relationship with your body and yourself. And if this episode would help someone you love, send it their way.

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