Many first met Patience Carter on June 14, 2016, telling her story through a poem she had written in a hospital bed in Orlando. It was two days after a mass shooting at Pulse nightclub that left 49 people dead, 68 seriously wounded and dozens more deeply traumatized. Orlando Sentinel senior reporter Kate Santich talks to survivors of the shooting and the people working to honor those who did not. This is the story of Patience Carter – now Patience Murray. And this is Pulse, Five Years Later.

• “Seeing the palm trees for the first time” (4:24)
• “I felt strong. I felt invincible.” (6:52)
• “That process of finding Pulse was so innocent” (8:27)
• “The guilt of being alive is heavy” (12:57)
• “Years of self-hating” (15:53)
• “The impossible becoming possible” (20:08)
• “Life does exist after tragedy” (31:50)
• “I talked myself out of my own destiny” (33:14)
• “The heaviness of not forgiving” (36:06)
• “I am not big enough to do this life on my own” (38:26)