Radiance Rising

Is this future mine, or is it who I was taught I’m supposed to become?

Episode 5 is about becoming, and how to tell whether the future you’re moving toward is truly yours or borrowed. We start with the idea that your future self isn’t a stranger to invent. She’s already showing up in small choices, if you know where to look.

We talk about the difference between pretending and practicing, the psychology behind it, and the clues your body gives you along the way, including the voice of “should” hiding underneath what you think you want. We also name two traps to skip: hustle culture and toxic manifestation.

Then we each share a story. Tabitha remembers the woman she met as a child who showed her what college could mean, and Courtney talks about the future she once pictured, and the quiet moment she realized she was ready to get off that train.

Chapters
00:00 Welcome and check ins
01:42 What do I want versus what should I do
02:59 Your future self: “I am her, she is me”
05:45 Pretending versus practicing
10:17 Possible selves and the psychology of becoming
13:15 How exposure shapes who we can imagine becoming
15:15 Is this future mine, or borrowed?
16:05 What your body is telling you
23:07 The voice of “should”
26:34 Two traps: hustle culture and toxic manifestation
30:13 When your future self becomes an improvement project
31:41 Tabitha’s story: the woman who showed her college
35:44 Courtney’s story: getting off the train
42:16 Four questions to take with you
44:42 Closing: you’re becoming more fully yourself

Ideas From This Episode
Possible selves, from psychologists Hazel Markus and Paula Nurius: the versions of who we might become, the ones we hope for, expect, and even fear
Future self continuity, from researcher Hal Hershfield: how connected you feel to the person you’re becoming
The coin flip trick: give each option one side of a coin, flip it, and notice which side you’re hoping for before it lands
Treat what your body tells you as one data point, not the whole answer

Before you leave, ask yourself two questions:

Where is your future self already showing up, in a decision, a boundary, or a habit?

Is the future you’re picturing yours, or is it borrowed?

The moon is always whole. And so are you. Keep rising.

What happens when you’re no longer who you were, and not yet who you’re becoming?

Episode 4 is about the space in between. After a few episodes of cracking open, we look at what it feels like to stand between the person you were and the person you’re becoming, and why it’s so hard to stay there.

We name what the in between feels like, the doubt, the guilt, and the flicker underneath. Courtney shares how her relationship with alcohol became an identity shift, and Tabitha opens up about the beliefs she’s setting down as she steps into her next chapter.

Then we get practical: why this phase is so tiring for your nervous system, and simple tools you can use at your desk, plus a journal entry from the middle of it.

Chapters
00:00 Welcome and check ins
05:28 The space between who you were and who you’re becoming
07:49 What the in between feels like
10:40 Courtney’s in between: alcohol and identity
17:05 Gremlins, journaling, and the beliefs we’re setting down
25:13 Starting before you feel ready
30:07 The Valley of Suck and why the in between feels so threatening
35:38 Vagus nerve tools you can use today
44:51 A journal entry from the in between
49:00 Three things to leave you with
50:55 Closing: the moon is always whole

Tools From This Episode
-Ear massage: light, slow circles for 30 to 60 seconds each on the tragus (the small flap in front of your ear canal), the cymba conchae (just above the ear canal), and the earlobe
-Slow exhales: a deep inhale followed by a long, slow exhale
-Humming or singing
-Rhythmic movement, like walking or gentle stretching
-Cold water

Link to Instagram video on the journey into entrepreneurship: https://www.instagram.com/reel/DauZpmaIbTq/

Before you leave, ask yourself two questions:

What in between are you in right now, and what do you need to release to reach the next place?

What is the flicker underneath the doubt that you refuse to ignore?

The moon is always whole. And so are you. Keep rising.

What does it take to turn an idea between two friends into something real?

This one is different than the rest. Instead of walking through an invitation, we sat down together in person for the first time since we started this whole thing, cameras rolling on launch day itself, and talked honestly about what it took to build Radiance Rising and what nobody sees from the outside.

We talk numbers: roughly 500 hours between the two of us from idea to launch, about 20 hours to edit episode one alone, and the decision we didn't want to make, moving from a weekly release to biweekly, because we wanted this to stay something we love instead of one more deadline.

We also get personal about the parts that are harder to admit, the perfectionism, the pressure of being authentic on a public platform, and what it means to live out what we're teaching, not just talk about it. And we tell you honestly what launch morning looked like, alarms, dogs, and spotty plane wifi included.

Chapters
00:10 Launch day, together in person for the first time
02:16 The timeline: from "we have so much time" to launch day
04:06 Dividing responsibilities: the CEO and the COO
05:25 The real hours behind the episodes
06:18 Doing the math: about 500 hours from idea to launch
07:15 Why they chose biweekly over weekly
13:40 Practicing what they preach
15:27 The hardest part of the journey, for each of them
22:45 Favorite episodes, and becoming a household name in each other's lives
25:57 Launch morning, in real time
29:27 Closing: the moon is always whole

Before you leave, ask yourself two questions:

What would you build if you gave yourself permission to do it imperfectly?

Is there something in your life you talk about wanting, but haven't given real hours to yet?

The moon is always whole. And so are you. Keep rising.

What if your body was trying to tell you something long before you were ready to listen?

Episode 3 is Courtney’s story. For over a year, her body kept sending signals, her skin, her sleep, her gut, and she kept explaining them away.

We talk about the moment one word from her practitioner cracked the whole mystery open, and what she found when she finally looked at her apartment instead of just her own body.

And we talk about what came next, a new business, a new certification, and a season that fell apart in almost every visible way before it became the foundation for everything she’s building now.

Chapters
00:00 Welcome back
02:14 What happens when your body becomes the messenger
03:10 Begin: the whispers she explained away
08:49 Build: Greece, the gut protocol, and becoming a detective
13:37 The mold discovery
21:01 Become: learning to trust herself
22:05 Reveal: Eat Biohack Love and IIN
26:24 Restore: the ankle break and the wound becoming a scar
28:52 Finding her voice again
42:38 Closing: the moon is always whole

Before you leave, ask yourself two questions:

What has your body been trying to tell you that you've been too busy to hear?

Is there a whisper you've been explaining away instead of investigating?

The moon is always whole. And so are you. Keep rising.

What if rest isn't the reward for finishing the work, but part of how the work gets done?

Episode 2 is Tabitha’s story. We hand you the framework at the heart of Radiance Rising, 5 invitations we’ve come to recognize in every meaningful season of change: Begin, Build, Become, Reveal, and Restore.

We walk through it using her own life. Her move to Chicago for grad school as her clearest Begin. The fitness competition that taught her the difference between motivation and commitment. And the promotion she spent two years chasing that, once she finally got it, revealed a transformation that had already happened.

We also talk honestly about rest, and what her trip to Hawaii taught her about the difference between withdrawal and true restoration.

Chapters
00:00 Welcome back and a check in
01:33 Revisiting the lie of linear growth
14:46 Begin: what wants to emerge
20:18 Build: showing up before you have proof
29:23 Become: who you're becoming, not just what you're achieving
33:39 Reveal: letting people see what you've cultivated
39:17 Restore: why rest is part of the work
44:40 One question to ask yourself this week
46:10 Closing: the moon is always whole

Before you leave, ask yourself two questions:

Which of the five invitations, Begin, Build, Become, Reveal, or Restore, is quietly asking for your attention right now?

What would it look like to answer that invitation instead of rushing past it?

The moon is always whole. And so are you. Keep rising.

What if the pressure to always be growing is getting in the way of growth?

In episode 1 of Radiance Rising, we’re challenging the idea that transformation should always look like forward motion.

Life moves in cycles. Yet so often, we treat the quieter phases as something to fix or rush through.

We share the personal experiences that taught us this in very different ways. Courtney talks about moving to Amsterdam just before the world shut down and how an unexpected pause changed her relationship with health, identity, and what she wanted from her life. Tabitha shares her journey from survival mode and achievement toward a deeper understanding of what it means to truly flourish.

We also introduce the framework at the heart of Radiance Rising, inspired by the phases of the moon, and the 3 AM moment when the idea first came together.

And because this is us, we eventually end up in Ireland, where a St. Patrick’s Day trip, one hotel bed, too many Bulmers ciders, and a missed tour turned two almost strangers into lifelong friends.

Chapters
00:00 Welcome to Radiance Rising
02:12 The lie of linear growth
05:42 Our own transformation stories
16:37 Curiosity and self inquiry
20:12 Recognizing the phase you're in
24:01 The moon as a framework for change
30:04 How we met
35:36 The Ireland story
43:19 Listening to the body's whispers

Before you leave, ask yourself two questions:

What has your body been trying to tell you that you’ve been too busy to hear?

What phase of life are you in right now?

The moon is always whole. And so are you. Keep rising

Meet Radiance Rising, a podcast about listening more closely to your body, your mind, and the life that’s trying to get your attention.

Court & Tabi bring two different but deeply connected lenses to the conversation. Court comes from the world of health, biology, and the body. Tabi brings the mind, beliefs, and the patterns that shape how we experience our lives.

Together, we dig into health, identity, relationships, purpose, transformation, and the messy middle of becoming, with science, personal stories, practical tools, and a lot of curiosity along the way.

This is Radiance Rising. We’re so glad you’re here.