I, Mitchell Anton MacEachern, am not right. I am seeking the truth. Being right and seeking the truth are two totally different things. The most important difference between them is that seeking the truth doesn't make me right. Part of the journey of seeking the truth is to honestly self-reflect on the truth-seeking that we do. I can see now, especially after listening to my podcasts (with a critical and open mind) that I have a performative aspect to my personality, and that this aspect feels wrong to me (it shows up in my relationship to music, too). I'm not saying performance is wrong. No, not at all. What I mean to say by "wrong" is that my personal performative aspect bugs my conscience; it consistently leaves me feeling sullied. With that said, I could be wrong about that feeling itself. Now you can see how tricky honest self-reflection can be. It's kind of like juggling while riding a unicycle. 

With that said, I believe feelings are trying to communicate information to us, but language can't accurately capture their message(s). Art can do a better job, in my opinion, than language. That's why it's worth it to take up an art form as a hobby; as something to do for no reason other than to be with yourself, to be with your feelings. Art gives voice to the voiceless, it gives soil and water to seeds. It's worth considering.

Anyways, I want to apologize for my performative nature. It does not lend itself to a truth-seeker. It's a disguise, a costume I put on to be more attractive to both myself and to you. All I can do is bring it up to consciousness for evaluation. And in doing so, I hope to get in touch with a more authentic version of myself.

Thank you for listening/reading!
Metta
Mitch

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