Life is incredibly confusing. Christianity can be incredibly confusing. Many parts of Christianity are mysteries, but sometimes we make it harder on ourselves by not knowing what is available to us. There are many different beliefs on communion. They are not all random and unable to be understood though. If we read in context and take scripture and tradition, we can help have firmer faith. If you do nothing else please read John chapter 6. It should challenge us and open us to seeking more. 6/14/20