Addiction, my season of shame, an apology- or lots of them. The journey of healing continues. For this week anyway! I will continue to pray about how my journey to heal can be shared. I pray for healing and freedom. The weight is not yours to carry! May God bless and guide whoever hears this message. Amen!

Journal entry reading, the confusion in the chaos, trauma bonds

Link for Common Ego:

https://youtu.be/Cgne9bVyJ-8

Second baby, sold home, Salvation Army, relapse.

Life after Big Nick. The beginning of addiction. Our first divorce.

CONTENT WARNING! This episode does talk about some sensitive subjects. An accident that leads to death. I do say the “f” word once, with a warning prior to saying it. Listen without little ears close by or be ready to volume down. If a story like this may trigger you, please listen carefully or choose to skip this episode. It isn’t graphical but just a warning. Death or traumatic accidents can be triggering and I want that to be considered. God can bring good from anything. Seek Him. Praying for anyone in any similar situation. Hurting hurts. You don’t have to hurt alone. You don’t have to heal alone. We can heal together 💗

Shout out to my fellow galvanizer/hype woman, Taylor! For the inspiration! How I ended up unequally yoked and the consequences of our choices. Financial ruin. Walking away from our home. Another bad phone call. Our move to Georgia. And our move back. Thanks for hanging with me as I talk my way through my personal healing.

This episode is a bit all over the place. I guess that keeps it true to my own personal journal though. Just keeping it real. A few poems I wrote. Revisiting love. What it isn’t. What it is. Hopefully there is a bit of something in there for someone.

Phew, definitely got some personal healing journal type stuff in there today. This episode gets emotional for me. Raw, unedited, emotional content. This is what it’s all about. Being real. Healing myself. Biggest take away, love is an action. My fisher of men story. Our first home and BBQ chicken. And a couple squirrels, sorry guys!

Toxic relationships, pregnancy, and a broken heart. And a link to Joshuas Poetry:

https://www.instagram.com/joshuaspoetry?igsh=NmJsbmZxN3dnYzB2

And the poem I was referring to:

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DU9saxPkXMf/?igsh=bm5hbWsxcnlnZ3hu

Diving in to the beginning of my relationship. Compromising morals. How important your village is. Breaking up is hard to do. But life goes on, learn to do it. Stay true to yourself. Deciding to love and the God shaped hole in our hearts that only God can fill.