Sometimes you don’t realize you are going in circles, producing. It looks like you’re actually doing something other than covering things up. The idea of receiving through the sitting practice of meditation is by sitting down, holding still, taking up a physical posture and bring all of the senses in, you start to see what you’ve been avoiding. You may not feel better, but the difficulty is your dharma gate. You work with your own personal karma so you can fundamentally be present.

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