There was a moment when I stopped caring what the world thought of my “faults”

I shed the layers that felt sticky with insecurities

I laid down the novels of tamed perfectionism that rattled my weary bones at night

I said no more

I shook off the cob webs of desire for being something I was not

I nodded my head in forgiveness for the times I’d abandoned the girl inside of me, desperate to break free, to dance and sing with wide eyes

Open heart

I met her at this time

In that moment I stopped caring what the world thought of my “faults”

And when we met on that cool spring day, the clouds creating hearts in the sky, I looked down at my toes that had always been mine, but for some reason felt so estranged

Like they were new

Like the whole body attached to me

The whole body that sheltered my soul,

Was new

I’d transformed

Something shifted in my blood

Something had cleared

Expanded

I was refreshed

Awakened

I’d shed those sticky layers of skin

Laid down the stories not meant for me

I said no more

Shook off the webs

Nodded in gratitude for an opportunity to embrace the part of me that had always been there, so afraid to shine

And I thanked the world for giving me the opportunity to hide

So that I could find her again

The girl inside who I’d abandoned

She’d been desperate to break free

And in my toes

And my limbs

I felt in my beating heart

Her expression come alive

And it felt like home

I’d dusted the corners

Changed the sheets

Turned on the lights

Replaced the appliances

And painted the door

We’d come home as one

Finally,

Together

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