Today I learned that I have to routinely suffocate negativity. With me trying to find a high quality braud to lock-down. I’ve been experiencing the most rejection I ever had in my life. It’s kinda wild. I’m looking at the mirror now more these days asking myself “Am I really that ugly?😂” the thing is that I don’t look much different from what I did when I was in high school and back then I had pretty girlfriends. So I’m just kind of confused? But luckily not deterred. With all this consistent rejection it’s hard for me to shoot another shot. I pick myself up after every rejection sure that I’ll try again tomorrow. Now I’ve come to learn that faith is something that isn’t static. I just can’t say Keep The Faith. Faith has to be continually restored and reemphasized. Faith either grows or dies each day. And each time I get rejected my faith crumbles away a little. My belief that I will find that female that I actually want to be with in the long term dwindles. With each rejection that faith is slowly replaced with the cynical thoughts. Thoughts that tell me that somebody like me is meant to be single forever. That I just wasn’t born with enough height to get the girls I want. Thoughts that tell me that for whatever reason girls just don’t like me. These are all loser thoughts. Negative thoughts. Thoughts that if I entertain I can kiss a good future for myself goodbye. Even though they are rational they are incorrect. The dating market is a tough place for most. A lot of people choose to not even participate in the dating market out of simple fear of rejection. Just the fact that I’m willing to continually face rejection shows a rare quality that will increase my chance of getting the female that I want. But I can only power through so much. I have to maintain the morale. I have to maintain the mindset. For each rejection I have to buttress my self against the negative thoughts that spur. Whether by either watching motivational content or just by writing that the girl I want Who wants me is out there, I’m going to find her, and it’s going to be worth the while. It’s not easy. But finally tidying up this area of my life is something that I will be most proud of.