Today is my son’s birthday. He would have been four years old.

This episode is slower and more personal than usual. I’m sitting with the mixed emotions that come with grief—missing him deeply while also feeling proud of myself for surviving something I once thought would end me.

I talk honestly about child loss, the guilt that often comes with it, and what it means to carry love after loss. Not in a polished or inspirational way—but in a real, human one.

This episode is for anyone who has lost a child, a loved one, a dream, or a version of themselves they can’t return to. It’s a reminder that grief is not the opposite of love—it’s proof of it.

If today feels heavy for you, you’re not alone.
Please listen gently.