Abouda has spent a lifetime split between a core desire for the peace that a monk's life represents and the fullness of a family life.

After spending the morning doing chores, physiotherapy and contemplating the moment, he suddenly realizes,

"I am a monk! 

I live in the elephant's graveyard, basically, as a monk does. 

I contemplate. I spend time in the moment. I do my work. I have my projects. I make these recordings. 

I am almost always completely in the moment.

It's funny how it never looks like you expected it would. But in some ways this almost exceeds expectations.