In this opening episode of Martfotai Season Two, we explore purgatory: the condition that arises when you see your patterns clearly but cannot yet stop them. Drawing on Gurdjieff's two rivers and the distinction between conscious labour and intentional suffering, we discover how to work with the gap between recognition and change. You'll learn why seeing doesn't automatically dissolve patterns, and how to remain present with conscious friction rather than seeking dramatic resolution. This is the careful observation of what has always been running, left unfed, until it loses its grip.

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