October evenings usually seem bleak and desolate by themselves. However, this one seems a bit greyer than usual. The outside world is a step beyond hopeless and I'm afraid I might know why.

The last few days have been ominous. The dark, grey presence has gotten to me and I've become jumpy and anxious. I've locked myself indoors and watched children's cartoons for hours sometimes. Their sprightly behaviour greatly contrasts the real world I live in. This seems to help.