The Backslider Diaries – The First Time
In this episode, we dive headfirst into all our firsts — first concert, first kiss, first drug, first time getting in trouble, and more. These moments shaped who we were before the unraveling. It’s raw, real, and maybe a little reckless. From awkward teen memories to spiritual confusion, it’s all part of the journey of leaving behind the lies we were raised in.

Featuring clips, vibes, and nods to:

• 🎸 Guns N' Roses – "Sweet Child O' Mine"

• 😱 Darth Vader – “NOOOO!”

• 🕊️ George Michael – "Freedom!"

• 🙏 R.E.M. – "Losing My Religion"

• 🗣️ Kendrick Lamar

• 🎶 Too $hort – "Don't Fight the Feeling"

• 🌊 Billy “Crash” Craddock – "Rub It In"

• ✈️ The Move – "Do Ya"

• 🐢 Sturgill Simpson – "Turtles All the Way Down"

• 🔥 Nine Inch Nails – "The Only Time"

• 🌾 Rev. Horton Heat – "Bales of Cocaine"

• 💔 Bright Eyes – "First Day of My Life"

• 🤘 Beastie Boys – "Fight For Your Right"

• 👟 Kenny Loggins – "Footloose"

• 😂 Eddie Murphy – Delirious

• 💀 The Toadies – "Backslider"

• 🍿 Friday (The Movie)

🎵 Opening music by The Demigs: Black Valley Fight

🎵 Closing music by The Demigs: Monochrome Blues

🌐 Resources:

• Adult Children of Alcoholics:
  https://adultchildren.org – for support, healing, and recovery

• Freedom From Religion Foundation:
  https://ffrf.org

  Paulogia Podcast

  https://www.youtube.com/paulogia

  Matt Dillahunty

  https://www.youtube.com/@SansDeity

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