What does it mean to surrender without abandoning yourself?

In this episode, I explore submission, control, and the desire to place yourself in another person’s hands. We talk about why powerful people may long to stop steering, how devotion can quietly become self-erasure, and the difference between choosing vulnerability and forgetting where you put your power.

Perhaps submission isn’t powerlessness at all. Perhaps it is trusting yourself enough to be transformed—and knowing when it’s time to return to shore.

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This week we’re doing a Q&A. From dating and femininity to spirituality, relationships, the Virgin Mary on my wall, and a few questions that made me expose myself a little more than expected…

I always love these videos because they end up feeling less like an interview and more like we’re just sitting down having a conversation.

If you have a question you’d like me to answer in the next one, leave it in the comments. I read them all.

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There was a moment in my early twenties that completely changed the way I think about being human.

This is a story about wonder, imagination, and why I’ve always felt more like a visitor than a permanent resident in my own skin.

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People love to say women live for male attention, but the older I get, the less true that feels.

In this episode, I talk about why women shape culture more than we realize, why men are often trying to keep up with us rather than the other way around, and how attraction actually works in the real world.

I also get personal about a recent heartbreak and what it feels like when someone leaves a mark on you, even after they’re gone.

Beauty, power, desire, grief, and the stories we tell ourselves about all of it.

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Once, I went with my partner at the time to Disneyland, and somewhere between the crowds, the long lines, and a glimpse of our reflection in the Haunted Mansion, I found myself wondering if love is supposed to feel more exciting than this.

We've been sold the idea that love should constantly feel like fireworks, adventure, and butterflies. In reality, love often looks much quieter. It's commitment. Loyalty. Choosing each other even when life feels repetitive. The spark doesn't disappear—it simply settles into embers that need tending.

I also realized something else: my boyfriend doesn't actually like Disneyland. He goes because it makes me happy.

And that led me to another realization—one person cannot be your everything.

Your partner doesn't have to be your best friend, therapist, travel companion, adventure buddy, and sole source of entertainment all wrapped into one. Sometimes the healthiest thing you can do for a relationship is build a life outside of it.

Love isn't less meaningful because it's comfortable. Sometimes comfort is the greatest expression of love there is.

And if all else fails, at least s*x is still cheaper than Disneyland.

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We live in an era where everything is curated.

Our faces.

Our bodies.

Our vacations.

Our personalities.

Our relationships.

And I think somewhere along the way we started expecting love to be curated too.

Perfect partners.

Perfect chemistry.

Perfect communication.

Perfect timing.

But the older I get, the more convinced I become that real love is not perfection.

It’s compromise.

It’s forgiveness.

It’s choosing someone again and again despite the fact that they are human.

This episode is about modern romance, unrealistic expectations, social media, and why finding love may require us to become a little less curated and a little more honest.

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At 15, I met a bisexual Wall Street kid on a cruise ship who invited me to Rihanna’s afterparty in New York. I became fully convinced this was my destiny and immediately started plotting how to secretly get to NYC with my friends.

This episode is about teenage delusion, social climbing, rich kids, sexuality, and the beginning of my obsession with New York and becoming “somebody.”

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Growing up as a girl often means inheriting shame before you even understand your own body. In this episode, I talk about femininity, insecurity, body politics, beauty standards, and why learning to love yourself can become an act of rebellion.

This is a conversation about confidence—not as arrogance, but as refusing to abandon yourself in a world that benefits from your insecurity.

What they named a cage, make a home.

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Women are expected to be beautiful, desirable, sexually expressive, emotionally available—and somehow completely free.

This episode is about Tumblr girls, male entitlement, online misogyny, internet girlhood, and what happens when a woman decides her attention has value. I talk about the men who flooded my inbox, the rage that followed the second I asked to be compensated for access to me, and the strange grief of deleting years of my writing and losing the girl I used to be alongside it.

Somewhere between female rage and nostalgia, this became a story about survival, memory, sexuality, and rewriting yourself after the internet tries to consume you.

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Attraction is not a strategy.

In this episode, we’re talking about the kind of men you feel drawn to—and why that pull isn’t always aligned with the life you actually want. Because the truth is, some men are exciting… but they’re also distracting, draining, and ultimately limiting.

This is about discernment.

About understanding the difference between chemistry and compatibility.

And about choosing a man who adds to your life—not one you have to recover from.