• Saying Hurtful Things

 

Today I was informed that I hurt someone’s feelings, and It does not make me feel good about myself.

In an effort to be funny, I came off as harsh, mean, unsympathetic, emotionless, an idiot, just overall not a kind and good person. And thus I am paying for it now. And so what must I do, I must apologize, and this apology very well may fall upon deaf ears. But I have to do it, this may be more so for myself. Because I am unsure what else I could do to rectify this problem? I honestly do not know, It does not make me feel good about myself. I am not proud of my words nor my actions. Like I said I am now paying for it, because I am not unable to think about too many other things. My thoughts are dominated on how careless I was with my words, and how mean I was. This person actually started crying. WOW, right. I made someone cry, with my words. Shows you how impactful your words can be, and how they can cut like a sword. And all of this was from an attempt at humor. I guess I am not very funny, just a mean spirited person. Hmmmm. A lot to think about. Hurt people , hurt people.

I do not want to be mean to people, I do want to make people laugh, but there has to be others ways to accomplish this without coming off so mean and harsh and unkind and unsympathetic. I am better than that. I deserved every bit of that situation today at work. I deserved it 100%

Is all of this an attempt to help cover up my own insecurities. I think that might be a hard yes.