Don't cross the ocean for a person who won't cross a river for you. Love is a give and take thing, if you're doing all the giving, walk away. You can not be truly happy when you go into any relationship holding on to hurt from another, neither can you love the right way, or know what love is like, cause the hurt won't let you. My first heartbreak should have made me stop but I didn't, but you can, you can walk away from that toxic relationship and tell yourself you are loved, accepted and do not need anybody's love to proof that.