🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 11a

Title: I commit to doing it anyway.

Description:

It’s 5:53 AM, and I’ve been up since 2:30 with barely any sleep, spiraling through Twitter, PT, and exhaustion. I record from a foggy, shame-soaked place—but fully awake to the realization that everything I’m afraid of must now be faced. This episode is a raw, relentless verbal commitment. Not a performance. Not a plan. Just a man telling the truth. I list out every fear, failure, and frustration—and I commit to doing it anyway.

I talk about:

• The trap of overthinking obedience while under-executing
• Why perfectionism, fear, and shame keep me off social media
• The decision to commit—publicly and messily—to daily action
• The paradox of wanting to be forgotten while longing to make impact
• My internal war with influence, execution, and spiritual surrender
• The painful cost of staying silent versus the risk of being misunderstood
• A full-body commitment to post, build, obey, and live—flawed and free

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Sleepless at 5:53 AM, lost in doomscrolling and self-loathing

06:45 – “I’m not honoring what I know to be true, and that has to change.”

13:22 – The embarrassing call to obey Jesus through social media

22:10 – “I feel like I’m sitting on the step while God tells me I can swim.”

27:30 – Raw list of everything I commit to—from failure to fame

50:11 – “If I don’t commit now, I never will... and nothing I want will happen.”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Discipline isn't about systems or clarity—it's about doing what I already know to do, even when it's scary, messy, or misunderstood.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional S2E11a — I commit to doing it, imperfectly, anyway.