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crisbeasley.comHello and welcome to season two of Unmasking with Cris Beasley. I am your host, the aforementioned Cris Beasley, and the new name denotes the massive earthquake that has opened up in my self-understanding over the last months. Those of you who have been following along with The Telepathy Tapes may have already started to become fascinated with autism, and perhaps you even wonder, am I autistic? That was definitely me.

In the same way that for many years I was like, am I ADHD? My mom was formally diagnosed, and yes, probably. It’s been a wild ride.

I’ve been working with what is widely called the most powerful psychedelic on the planet, 5-MeO-DMT. I’ve been microdosing it, and it has opened up pathways for me to look at things that I hadn’t—it’s not that I hadn’t wanted to look at them before, but it’s very difficult to look at things that you don’t even know exist. I’m a firm believer that what is locked away in our subconscious has wisdom to it, that we can’t look at certain chapters of our own story until we have the strength and grounding to do so. I

’m going to be covering many topics in season two. We’re going to go down many tangents and rabbit holes. I’m starting to understand with this autistic diagnosis as I read more about the characteristics of neurodivergent people what this brain is for, and why, for most of my life, I have felt like the weird one, and I didn’t understand why the world didn’t seem to be shaped in my shape. Season two is going to be about giving myself permission to be weird and to stop apologizing for the things that people don’t understand about me, and to embrace that this is how I am. I’m supposed to be this way. It has a function.

Top line information about season two: even though episodes might have a title and appear to be about a thing, it’s better to think about each episode as the central node that we’re going to keep coming back to throughout the episode, but the purpose of each podcast is to expand the concept of what each topic connects to.

There are other people who are more expert in each of these nodes than I will ever be because they have a brain that goes into the detail and studies the stuff in a comprehensive fashion. I’m going to leave links to these people’s excellent work—YouTube channels, books, podcasts—so that if you want to know where I’m getting my information from, you can tune in to the experts that I’m using to inform my viewpoints.

I have a synthesizing brain. I’m interested in everything (other than sports.) I’m even sometimes interested in politics. I’m interested in everything from house construction to the microbiome, gardening, and precious metals futures, and the world economy. It’s so many different topics, I literally could not list them all.

I’m going to stop apologizing for being interested in nearly everything. I’m going to look at my synthesizing feature as the thing my brain was designed for. This is what I’m here to do. I’m here like a brain neuron network to trace the pathways between things. And once you see that these things are connected, it’s very obvious.

Sometimes when I’m explaining things, I know I’ve done it well when people are like, yeah, of course it’s like that. But they didn’t know it before then. And that’s the sensation that I have within myself, where I go, “Of course, it works like that.” I understand why the obesity epidemic—it took me years to figure out the obesity epidemic, and now when I look at it, I’m like, yeah, that’s exactly what’s happening. There are many pieces to it. There’s not just one input to answering it with any kind of satisfaction, but now that I look at it, I totally get it. I totally get why we are where we are and what we can start to do to dig out of it. These are not necessarily easy things to do, but there are some simple ways of starting to understand extraordinarily complex system change.

Everyone knows that we’re in the midst of immense change on the whole planet right now. It seems everyone understands that shit’s going down. Many cultures marked this time as a moment of change. The Mayan calendar with 2012 being one of the most famous, but there are many prophecies about this time being this enormous, potent moment of change. Much of what we’re going to talk about, if not all, is connected to how we make sense of the chaos, how we can work with the chaos and flow with it to do what it’s here to do, because it’s unavoidable. It’s totally unavoidable, and it is good. It’s absolutely 100% for the good of all on the planet, but the next couple of decades are going to be challenging.

We’re stripping away the systems of control, the ways in which we were taught to behave and be obedient, the subconscious programming that’s being weaponized against us to keep us unhappy.

It’s all breaking apart right now. There are many forces that are pushing up from below like a tree root that can lift a whole house. That’s what’s happening right now. It’s not scary unless we try to do it alone. It’s not scary if we let our identities dissolve, if we let ourselves no longer be labeled into boxes of people who are told they have the right to hate each other, to insult each other.

We’re breaking down the silos. I’m here to break down those silos of the false identities that tell us how we’re supposed to behave, how we’re supposed to talk, how we’re not supposed to talk, how we’re supposed to dress, how we’re not supposed to dress. All these things signal that I am a part of a group. I am of a group that’s a part of you or not a part of you. That’s going to tell me whether I should trust you or not trust you. But we’re deconstructing so much of this tribal programming over the next decades.

Let’s bring it back to autism. The unmasking that is happening for me personally, I know is happening for many people, whether or not you consider yourself autistic. This is a year where many people are choosing to step into our voices, and I want us to do it together. I know in my bones that we need safe spaces to come back to after we went out into the world, and we were brave, but it went badly.

I’ve been trying to step into my voice. I was cut out of a community that I had been a volunteer in for like the first five years of this event, led by two white men about my same age. They found the commentary I was starting to write about sex and relationships and women stepping into their power, and they did not know how to moderate me. I was causing too much conversation.

I went back into my little hole after that because I learned the wrong lesson. I mean, it was true—you do get cut out of communities—but it was hard. I didn’t take away the lesson that I did the right thing. I did it perfectly well, or at least reasonably well. I wasn’t a horrible person, and I didn’t deserve to be treated the way that I was treated. That’s not the lesson that I took away from it. Instead, I hid for a bunch of more years. Then I tried various other times—many, I don’t know how many we’ll have time to talk about—but many various other moments where I tried to step into my voice and somebody didn’t like it. I was like, damn, it keeps happening. I must be doing it wrong, and I kept going back into my hole.

This time I’m not going back into my hole.

If you’re on that journey as well, if you already did it, please share some tips. Help a girl out. I could use some solidarity from some people ahead of me on this. And if you’re in it, or if you want to get started in it, let’s do it. There ain’t no time but the present, we gotta get going.

We’re going to talk about a whole bunch of stuff. And basically everything that I’m talking about is going to piss somebody off. Because it’s all connected. Everything that I’m going to be talking about is connected to what we’re doing to free ourselves from the bullshit that is keeping us sick, that is keeping us invisible, that is keeping us poor, that is keeping us frustrated, resentful, not in relationships with the correct people, people pleasing some people that don’t even appreciate it. They like what they get from us, but if we stop giving it to them, they’re going to behave badly. I’ve left some relationships like that. It was not pleasant. So painful. Because you think these people are your people. At the very least, you think, I don’t know if I’ll have any other people. If I leave these, they’re probably as good as I’m going to get. I can’t afford to not have a best friend or a boyfriend or a girlfriend or whatever. But no, that’s not true. It’s all bullshit.

So let’s find each other. I’m going to be talking about the world economy, the price of gold, the Epstein files. We’re going to talk about Trump’s fall. That shit’s about to get lit on fire. We have gone over the log flume, kids.

We are on the ride, and we’re going to make it. I’m telling you, we’re going to make it.

We’re going to do it and we’re going to do it together. We’re going to find each other. We’re going to clear off a whole bunch of bullshit. There’s so much bullshit, I can’t even go down that tangent… so many tangents. There are so many fights that are not even about the thing that is important. We have to stop getting drawn into the bullshit fights and talk about what’s really important.

What else are we going to talk about? We’re going to talk about art. We’re going to talk about giving up hatred of others, other races, other genders, trans people, gay people, whatever. We have to give up our hatred of other people. We’ve been trained to hate each other. We’ve been trained to misunderstand each other, to stereotype each other. And some of this shit’s still deep in me. It’s implanted deep in us, the mistrust of each other, but we’re coming out of it.

I’m definitely going to talk a bunch about art, creating, what it takes to nourish ourselves. We’re going to talk about technology. We’re going to talk about the surveillance state. We’re talking about creating new, right relationships with money and livelihood so that we aren’t controlled by the surveillance state. There’s so much good stuff. I’m sure there’s more. We’re probably going to talk about cats and dogs. I don’t know what all we’re going to get into.

We’re also going to take questions. I’ve already got three questions incoming to put to the guides. We’re going to turn cards from the upcoming Ennea Oracle deck. Last but not least, I’m going to tell you about the Ennea Oracle deck. Heretofore known as Becoming Dragon, but I’m shifting it to Ennea Oracle because, truly, the Enneagram is the backbone of this deck. My inner wisdom asked me to finish the first section. So I’ve got nine cards all about the Enneagram 3, the overachiever, whose mission it is to be authentic and find our voice. Do you see what we’re up to here?

I’ve got nine channeled messages that will be going up on the website soon. The cards are finished, the guidebook is finished, and you can already go to crisbeasley.com and turn a card for free. We’ve got so much to talk about with Enneagram – this beautiful system for understanding the way in which we disconnect from our heart intelligence, the way in which we disconnect from our mental clarity, and the way in which we disconnect from our body and divinity. We have a lot to cover. If there’s one topic I’m most likely going to talk about for the rest of my life, it is the Enneagram.

You can always hit reply to any of my emails. They come directly into my inbox. I read every single one, and I will reply to as many as I possibly can. And if you wish to ask a question to the guides, that link will be down in the notes.

Be good, but not too good. I’ll see you next time. Much love.

Cris

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