I have been coping with some pretty difficult circumstances this month, ironically the first month in almost ten years I have not used THC (so far) by choice. So I'm trying to determine what is of value to me and pare away nonessential aspects that stress me out. I'm looking over the tools and coping mechanisms I have collected and keeping them handy. As a self-actualized adult who has needlessly relied on others for most of my life, it feels like my responsibility to develop as much self-reliance as I can. My problems are too weird and dangerous to burden others with them when I feel like I am right on the edge. And as well meaning as the words may be when others say them, if they REALLY don't wanna know, hearing people ask"are you okay?" just feels like a kick in the head to me.