Guess these next ones seem kind of dark, but it is helping me cope in some way. Even if this IS just a dark, bad, place either owing to my own personal awfulness or the epic historical horribleness perpetrated by humanity as a whole- whether this is a hell of my own creation, or for all of us, or if this will all just vanish- at least for me, the moment I die (if I haven't already) I get to choose how I want to experience it and engage with it. The life I believe I have been given is quite short as it is, and whatever lay beyond, if anything, is a mystery- so I am just going to do my best to imbue the time I have here with meaning and whatever kindness I can put forth. Whew, kind of a lot there.