We're all to a large degree living the life we created for ourselves. Sure some things have happened that were completely out of your control and some of them were chaotic or traumatic or just downright painful and stagnating but if you're willing to do the work you can get over, process come learn from even these things and still have the life you desire! Self evaluate often be honest about who you are and where you are and what you desire and how to go about it, formulate a plan, and do the work! Remember to be loving and kind towards yourself. With God , a little bravery, and an honest picture of yourself and a plan get there..you can have anything you desire ( wholeness, healing, peace, joy, wealth, marriage, etc. You're worth it!