Processing today's therapy session led to me recognizing I'm struggling with this duality of being overly humble versus actually arrogant. I talk about transparency being an extension of my own character and having a significant place in my values, but then I haven't been demonstrating that for myself. I've put much of my desires for my life into other peoples' hands out of fear of my own power of intentionality. I know that I want everything, but I won't just communicate that with people. Most important, I'm not truly transparent with myself. I am practicing creating a bigger picture for myself with intentionality and allowing my existing relationships to support that, and the ones that don't just won't.