After yesterday's setback I needed a good rant to get some stuff out of my head.

I talk about what happened yesterday. I give some examples of where I see differences in my attitude moving forward.

I miss going 100mph in life, and I worry about what's going to happen moving forward. Explaining how my body reacts to medications, and what I need in my day to day life to survive. People might look at having a person to clean as an unnecessary expense, I look at it like a co-pay for a medication. I wish I didn't have to pay for help, but unfortunately, I do.

A joke from my doctor about flip flops with no socks, helps me explain why I very rarely wear shoes. The struggles I face every morning, shine a light on why it is so difficult for me to keep things clean and organized. It's tough to explain to people that being a slob, is as difficult for me as it is to the people around me.

I take about my personality, how difficult it is to ask for help, but I always say yes when asked for a favor.

A lot of listeners left, didn't know me before I started this podcast, and haven't seen the workaholic side. I've talked about my health issues and how unhealthy I am, but I have done such a good job of hiding it for 20 years, a lot of people thought I was exaggerating.

As the nurses that had to clean me up yesterday, if I'm "doing this for attention!"

There's a joke towards the end about my life that pretty much sums me up. You might not like me, and believe me I'm cool with that. Chances are you got into it with me, crossed a line, and in turn I offended you. Good our society could use some honesty to those who are always offended.

"I'm not a nice guy, but I'm a good guy." LL Cool J

"I don't cheat, I don't beat, and when I eat everyone around me eats!" Johnny Tour

Time for me to get back to eating!

Let's Gooo!!!