I’m fumbling through this life I’m resisting to live because in Heaven there is no struggle. Others made decisions in support of my abusers and just dumped me in the hot sun ☀️ while everyone prospered from fraudulent conveyances across all domains.

But, who am I, right? I guess I’m not a person worthy of respect and dignity as performed by so many who know more about me than I do them.

And each celebrates winning from harming a victim because they were fraudulently conveyed to; but I guess if everyone lies as one organ, it’s not a lie? “More of U.S. than you.”

“Why aren’t you working already? I don’t understand.”

TRANSCRIPT

It's a struggle to live and I'm tired of complaining about it so I made plans and I went four days no food. This is my second day without, well, it was my second day without hydration with a view to activating my constitutional right to voluntarily stop eating and drinking and the reason why is because everything around me tells me I don't deserve to live.

I was abused as a child and an adult in some pretty horrific ways. I lost everybody, that there's a lot of funerals I haven't attended. and I didn't get any good byes.

And people just took everything. They just took everything from me. Like, you wouldn't believe. No documentation. sent off around the country with no result each time everybody just takes everything. Everything hospitals, whatever. They just take everything and that's what. We Epstein Trump victims deserve, I guess.

I don't know. I don't know what's wrong with people. I don't know. And I think that's what it is. I don't know what's wrong with people, and I'd rather not live amongst a bunch of, I mean, the network to create the amount of harm is pretty amazing. So it's hard. It's hard, I don't like it. Because I am the one that everybody came to. to solve the problems and I needed people and they're either dead or they're just one of them, you know?

And if you can only think in numbers and you lack human capacity, there's no reason for you and I to be in our, you know, lives together, but you don't need to come kill me. The fact of the matter is a major crime occurred to me, and nothing has happened. I was just dumped off. No end result, no word.

And people just think I'm supposed to just operate normally with my daughter and my mother just gone. They're just gone. And I tell people, and they don't care. They don't care. And I try to go to therapy, and I try to go to doctors, and I try to get mental health. And because of who my violators are, every single medical care facility and everywhere I go is just they just come in. And this is just the way it is, in the intelligence world.

And I have survived this far, but I'm wondering why. I don't know why I didn't get to stay up in Heaven. And it's hard because Heaven is a beautiful place. There is no suffering. You're just an existence with God. and it's warm and the feeling is just amazing. And then I was made to come back down here.

And then I was struggling, you know? I was really struggling, and instead of realizing what happened to me or even caring about what happened to me, everybody just assumed I was in a troubled relationship with substances because of who I was attached to. And then what everybody did, they went, they gave him everything. They catered to my abuser, these people that were supposed to love me. and they took my family from me, and they left me no words. Nothing. I got no ex…explanation.

I just got flung out into the wild and told you just here just live. Beg, borrow, and plead for that which is yours. And I have worked my whole life. I was taught not to ever ask for help because there was always penalties. Always. And I'm just disappointed. I'm I'm just disappointed.

Because all the good in me was created by those who turn their backs on me. And I'm the one who reported the harm to my child. And then they just came. They just came for us. They just, I mean, it was just, I don't even know where my sister is. I don't know anything. And this is what y'all have decided. I deserve. Nothing. No word, no nothing.

And that's who you are. You are cruel people. You are absolutely cruel people who have run out of humanity. And so today, I don't know why I'm fighting to live. I stopped myself. I would have been dead by Friday.

But something I got a text message. and then I was looking for mental health. I don't know why I'm fighting, but I'm fighting. I have nothing.. I have never relied on people before, and y'all have just dumped me out.

I had a business. What happened to that? Every, oh, everything's disappeared. And that's how cruel everybody is. They're so afraid of their own crimes that they join together in their wrongdoing. And they make decisions and they don't care. They do not. The abs absolutely do not care about humanity. They have no humanity. They do not care..

And when I'm left in this kind of environment where people are like just go be okay and beg borrow and plead. And I'm not used to it. You took everything from me. You left me for dead, like, literally, and threw me out in the world.

That's who you people are, whoever, you know? That's who you are. You don't deserve to take care of other people. None of you do. I don't know what happened. I don't know what occurred. I don't know who's protecting you. I don't care. And God our father doesn't care.

You are cruel. You are cruel to me.

And every day I have to fight for a reason to live, and I have no reason to live. It's crazy that I am fighting to live. It is absolutely crazy because I hit brick walls every day and I feel like somebody's laughing about it, you know That's how empty somebody is.

And I try to explain it to people, and they're not a victim like me, and they know all the histories surrounding Epstein’s Island and all this stuff and. I don't know why I'm fighting to live. I have no incentive. I don't, I have no friends, I have no family, I have nobody because I reported and that everybody took advantage of me and exploited me and then passed me around to all their friends and everybody's watching me as hidden enemies.

And then whoever orchestrated the whole thing never told everybody that I didn't give consent. So then whoever caused it all, now you're all joined together with your wrongdoing. and you know you did something wrong.

And you know each one of you know you stacked the deck against me. You know it. And it's sad. It's sad, that's how empty all of you are. That's who you are now. You're afraid of the crimes you have committed, or you're just too proud, or you honestly, you just don't care.

And that's what I think. I think each one of you has reached the level that you have absolutely emptied out your humanity. You have. You're absolutely empty, and you should take this as your sign that you are no longer useful to an American society. Because you are taking victims and just flinging them out because it's better for you. Not for us.

You're taking our words, you're taking our verbs. I mean, and you're using them for yourselves. And you're wondering why we can't get back up. If we had been abused all of our lives and y'all don't care. Y'all don't care at all. None of you. You exploited me. You extorted, and you took everything. Everything.

I created a child. I created a child in my stomach and…me? What is wrong with you? And then …you're the ones who did it. You are. You're the ones who did it.

You're the ones who sit as doctors and judges and lawyers and attorneys, and then you turn around, and you represent us the victims. I like, you're our friends, and you are not our friends. You are awful people. You are so lost in the desert. And I feel sorry for you.

Because at least I'm crying. I don't think you have the capability. I don't think you have the capacity any of you. I don't think any of you have the capacity to feel emotion. You take so many amhetamines. You justify it by saying it's prescription use. And I've watched y'all snort it off the damn counters while you made fun of me for not using so I know what you're doing.

And I regret that you were ever in my life. You take, you feed off of people who are innocent because you are so fucking empty. You create your own healths, you complain about who's doing what, who's doing what, where, and it's you. You are. You are so envious and jealous of people who were happy in their lives that you must go fuck it up and figure out how you're going to fuck it up for them. and take it away. And you enjoy it. You enjoy it. You are so empty that you enjoy physically taking, hate, hope, faith, enjoy, away from other human beings.

And you're so afraid of what you've done that you don't even think anybody needs any explanation. That's how big your fear is.

And then you turn around and you fluff yourselves up and, oh, whatever. She's just, or he's just It's because you're too weak to say the fucking words. You're gonna act like God, you should be able to stand up like God and tell everybody what you've done to us.

Why are you hiding? Why are you manipulating?

You don't deserve to serve any American person. You don't deserve to take care of any human being at all. Every single one of you. Because everybody knows what they did to me.

Everybody, every singlebody knows, every piece in part. You just, it's just some of y'all don't know the backstory before I came to you and they used you for that. They used you to commit more crimes to cover up what I was already working on. So now you're one of them. Now I can't listen to your music anymore. Now I can't look at your face anymore because you didn't even respect me enough to tell me what you did.

You don't respect me. You don't think I'm a human. I get it. Because you're not human. You lost it a long time ago..

So now I have to fight to stay alive like I just did today. And I don't know why I'm doing it. The deck is stacked so high up against me is pointless. But I'll be goddamn if I'm gonna let y'all win. I will be goddamn if I'm gonna let y'all win. You know who you are. You are damned creatures. You are so sick. You should take yourselves out. So that the rest of us can heal. Because you're not healing anybody.

You're pretending. You're accumulating numbers. You're using your numbers to cause create false bravado for some reason you think maybe you've gotten addicted to video games. I don't know what y''s mindset is. I do know that each one of y'all are victim perpetrators and that makes you more dangerous.

So I fight to live again. I stop myself. I am getting help or I'm trying to who knows? Y'all probably come and take that over again too.

But this is what y'all do. I know. Y'all do not deserve to take care of people. None of yall

Nobody's giving me informed consent of anything. I've got a whole lot of habaloon, a lot of shuffling around, chasing my tail, spending money I don't have so that you'all can call me poor and justify your reasoning behind calling other people names that don't have the amount of money you have because you stole all of it or your child pornographers.

You don't get your money honestly. That's why you accuse others of all these labels. You don't create your life honestly, and you're so full of envy and jealousy, or just plain old empty of humanity in general.

And you people are the reason other people have to seek medication to want to live because of the treatment of you. And you pretend as if God our father of 72 nations doesn't see. He is the creator of all the seen and unseen.

And whether you're down here in human land or not, believe in my words, I can guarantee you your skin is filled with all the Deeds you have performed in your lifetime.

That is a fact. You can always test the theory by checking into Heaven unless you're afraid. You seem to have no problem doing it to others because you think you're God that I live to fight another day and talk to an empty space and see if I can go eat something and I have no idea what I'm doing.

No idea. I have no idea why I'm living. I have no incentive, but I'm still here and I'm still fighting, and I guess it's just me for me.

That will just have to be good enough. There's going to be plenty of tears. I'm still going to cry. because y'all have fucked me up seven ways to Sunday and you know it. You know it.

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