What's up my fellow failures! On any journey, there are ups and downs. Even with self-improvement, there are times you aren't the happiness you want to be. And that is ok! You don't always have to be happy or thankful. Yes, find something to be happy and thankful about, but you don't have to force it. Being happy and loving yourself isn't about denial or squashing the bad things, it's about learning the balance between good and bad because they will always be there. 

People who actually know what the fuck they are talking about:

https://www.psychalive.org/should-you-feel-or-flee-your-emotions/

https://pro.psychcentral.com/the-five-types-of-avoidance/#:~:text=Cognitive%20avoidance,that%20feel%20unpleasant%20or%20overwhelming.

https://youtu.be/EKy19WzkPxE