Warning: If you don't like swears, you won't like this..

I couldn't decide between, shit man, you ok? and shit Amanda, you ok? So I did both.

Though I know it's going to conjure up Friends throwbacks, or playground ones... Let's go with it..

In this podcast I am summarising what has been a pretty big week, in a big month of a big year..

With all the positives of healing work, there comes some pretty nasty side effects that I have to push past.  These are often the ones that make me want to stop in my tracks; but in knowing my body and mind I know that it's my anxiety trying to keep me safe from 'harm' aka stuff that isn't actually harmful but because of conditioning I have come to believe they are.

If I stood up for myself or chased success and goals; I was told I was selfish or treated like I was conceited.. So self sabotage has been huge in my life.

Where I have been capable of achieving lots that I have wanted to and have always fallen short, it has been for the most part, me tripping myself up so I can still feel loved.

Bullshit..

The right people will not want you to shrink.

I talk about the week i've been sharing on Instagram that has been getting a lot of interaction.. However, forgot to put in the being cancelled on by a faulty Tinder date experience...

I have posted this on my Instagram today, will IGTV and YouTube it AND Podcast for good measure lovelies.

Long story short.  I'm doing grand thanks, physical pain effects of CPTSD response aside, I am feeling happy.

A couple rocky self doubt days were welcomed in, felt, rationalised and moved on.

I'm learning babes.

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Amanda

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