[2019/07/11 09:39:41 Nuweibaa, Sinai]

this is another recurring melody that has been with me for at least a year and a half
i made a short video with another version of it in february 2018, during the protest

i'm surprised i didn't call this one "the only song i know" because it seems even more characteristic of my playing than the other one
i wonder which one came first, i guess they both had been with me for a while at this point

we came down to Sinai, my sister and I, because she was feeling depressed and anxious
and i suggested we take a trip to chill out and talk for a bit

she had a number of panic attacks during the trip
neither of us knew to call them that at the time

during the trip i transitioned back and forth between two modes
one of being very empathetic and sympathetic towards her, and the other of being very angry at her

i think the sympathetic, nice part gained her trust by showing her that i understand her situation
(to the extent which i did, which was less than i realized)
i think the angry, commanding part made it very clear what was what and where the boundaries where

although i had some second thoughts about certain moments in our interaction
i think both parts were crucial