What happens when you're smiling at church… but fighting in the car five minutes before service? In this powerful episode of the Even If Podcast, Adrian Ward Jr. opens up about the real tension between public faith and private struggle. We talk about: • Arguing in the church parking lot • Choosing prayer over pride • Serving while hurting • Not being what you did • The danger of bottling things up • Why you need an outlet, not just a position • How to actually build intimacy with God This episode is about awareness. It's about humility. It's about asking yourself honestly: "Lord… where am I off at?" Faith isn't pretending you're okay. It's choosing obedience even when you're not. If you've ever had to hold it together while falling apart inside, this conversation is for you.