I need you now

It’s a dark time and I don’t know where to go

Am I meant to stay this way forever?

Lord, You’re the only one who knows and I am yours

In this moment I surrender

My worst anxieties, impossibilities 

They feel like ordinary days

The stories in my mind, unruly and unkind

I just can’t make them go away

Too many hours, too many days

Feeling hopeless and broken, lost and afraid

Oh, teach me to be just a little more brave

‘Cause I don’t know if I can face, another ordinary day

I need you now

It’s a sad time and I don’t know what to do

Am I meant to be this way forever?

You, are the only one to show me what is true

So I will surrender

All the worst parts of me, the pain and misery

They feel like ordinary days

The stories in my head that hurt me to no end

How can I make them go away?

Too many hours, too many days

Feeling hopeless and broken, lost and afraid

Oh, teach me to be just a little more brave

‘Cause I don’t know if I can face, another ordinary day

© 2023 Songwriter Diaries 

Sometimes the dreaming’s all I ever do

Sometimes I fall asleep and dream of dreaming too

My heart is open and my spirit free

Still I’m not where I want to be

I’m spending days with my head in the clouds

I’m walking circles and I get lost in the crowd

I can’t believe all of the time that’s gone

Still I’m not where I belong

Once I gave it all to have it all

I used to be more than just a dreamer

More than just a dreamer
It’s time to pick myself up from the fall

I want to be more than just a dreamer

More than just a dreamer

Head in the clouds

Help me find a way out

Sometimes I cry for all the things I’ve missed

Sometimes I wonder why it all has come to this

But I know there’s a reason for these tears

A reason why I’m still here

I’ve lived in shadows for the past few years

Dreaming in secret in the company of fears (though accompanied by fear)

But something’s calling that I can’t ignore

Something good my life is for

Once I gave it all to have it all

I used to be more than just a dreamer

More than just a dreamer

It’s time to pick myself up from the fall

I want to be more than just a dreamer

More than just a dreamer

Head in the clouds

Help me find a way out

Help me find a way out

Once I gave it all to have it all

I used to be more than just a dreamer

More than just a dreamer

It’s time to pick myself up from the fall

I want to be more than just a dreamer

 
© 2023 Songwriter Diaries

There are some days I can’t wake

Problems that I can’t face

Shame about the mistakes, that I’ve made

There are some nights I can’t sleep

Worries keeping me weak

And I find it hard to believe in me

But it can take just one blessed minute

To suddenly be overcome

I can’t put into words the way that it feels, 

To discover your love 

Every time I am alone

I think about life on my own

Troubled by everything I still don’t know

Every time I am afraid

Worried ‘bout things I can’t change

I pray that I will be okay, someday

And it can take just one blessed minute

To suddenly be overcome

I can’t put into words the way that it feels, 

To discover your love 

You say all things in life have beauty in their own time 

You say you’re here with me in darkness and in the light

And if I only set my sights above

It can take just one blessed minute

To suddenly be overcome

Nothing can replace this feeling

Knowing that you are the one

You’ve given me a heart worth beating

So into your arms I will run

I can’t put into words the way that it feels, 

To discover your love 

 © 2023 Songwriter Diaries

I’m still underneath the covers

Putting out the flames that

Sting and burn my skin

I’m still hiding in the shadows

Fighting off the ghosts who’ve

Haunted their way in

But somehow in these trials 

and despite these tear-stained cheeks,

I feel like dancing now I feel you here with me

So I will dance, I will sing

And I will find a way through everything

I won’t give in, I won’t give up

I’ll still believe in all I’m dreaming of

With you somehow I can, so I will dance 

I still worry for tomorrow

All the things I don’t know

What the future brings

I still overthink the details

Trying hard to escape

All the fear within

But somehow in these moments 

and despite what leaves me weak,

I feel like dancing when you’re dancing next to me

So I will dance, I will sing

And I will find a way through everything

I won’t give in, I won’t give up

I’ll still believe in all I’m dreaming of

With you somehow I can, so I will dance 

With you somehow I can, so I will dance 

© 2023 Songwriter Diaries

Here I go again, all the thoughts within, 

circling my head

I can’t seem to win, fighting off this sin, 

finding ways to mend

Even in my praying I am contemplating

All the ways I worry and I fault

What will it take?

What is the cure?

What do I live this misery for?

How will I learn?

How do I heal?

How can I bear the pain that I feel?

God if you’re listening to me

Help me be still

I seem to lose my days in a messed up haze, 

I can take no more

I’m without a sword and without a shield 

in this internal war

Even in believing, I am lost and grieving

Who I was before this took its toll

What will it take?

What is the cure?

What do I live this misery for?

How will I learn?

How do I heal?

How can I bear the pain that I feel?

God if you’re listening to me

Help me be still

I might not be alone but I sure am feeling lonely

How could you love someone like me?

I’m scared of being like this

I’m scared of being trapped in

All of the weaknesses you see

God, I am listening

What will it take?

What is the cure?

What do I live this misery for?

How will I learn?

How do I heal?

How can I bear the pain that I feel?

God if you’re listening to me

Oh are you listening to me?

You’re my only remedy

Help me be still

Help me be still

Help me be still

© 2023 Songwriter Diaries

I believed I had it figured out

Then thieves in the night come

Slowly as the mornings get me down

Never a moment is right

I thought there were boundaries 

Lines uncrossed and sacred space

But you have a hold on me

And I can’t seem to break away

I’ve never been rebellious 

I’ve barely even told a lie

Now I’m feeling jealous

Of the ones who aren’t afraid to try

It’s like I haven’t grown up

Trapped inside a box of

Rules I followed as a child

Just when I think that it’s my time

Come thieves in the night 

I believed I made most of my time

But I watch the time fly 

Wasted days they make me want to cry

I’m hardly getting by

I thought there were boundaries 

Ties undone and rules to bend 

You still have a hold on me

And I don’t know when it will end

I’ve never been rebellious 

I’ve barely even told a lie

Now I’m feeling jealous

Of the ones who aren’t afraid to try

It’s like I haven’t grown up

Trapped inside a box of

Rules I followed as a child

Just when I think that it’s my time

Come thieves in the night 

Thieves in the night, night, night

Thieves in the night

Thieves in the night, night, night

I know I’ve been mostly lucky

And I have all that I need 

But I just can’t break free from all the power you have on me

And you don’t even see

Don’t you see?

I’ve never been rebellious 

I’ve barely even told a lie

Now I’m feeling jealous

Of the ones who aren’t afraid to try

It’s like I haven’t grown up

Trapped inside a box of

Rules I followed as a child

I’ve never been rebellious 

I’ve barely even told a lie

Now I’m feeling jealous

Of the ones who aren’t afraid to try

It’s like I haven’t grown up

Trapped inside a box of

Rules I followed as a child

Just when I think that it’s my time

Come thieves in the night 

Oh you’re a thief in the night
Thieves in the night
You’re a thief in the night

© 2023 Songwriter Diaries

I think about life before

I think about all the times I’d won

Never running out of more

Never running out of love

I might have been self-assured

A little naive in all the fun

Sitting pretty on the top of it all

Now there is silence

Now that I’m hurting

I’m flooded with all the memories

Is it a breakdown?

Is it a breakthrough?

Towards the woman I’m meant to be

I’m still afraid and in this melody

I’m trying to make a change that’s good for me

I, don’t know where this will lead

Right now I’m so far from sitting pretty

I find myself insecure

I find myself comfortable to hide

Always being oh so cautious

Anxious, always tired

How is that I’m so unsure?

So unlike the girl I used to know?

Sitting pretty on the top of it all

Now that I’m older

Now the world’s changing

I’m holding onto the memories

Is it a breakdown?

Is it a breakthrough?

Towards the life that I’m meant to lead

I’m still afraid and in this melody

I’m trying to make a change that’s good for me

I, don’t know where this will lead

Right now I’m so far from sitting pretty

I think about life before

I think about all the times I’d won

Never running out of more

Never running out of love

I wanna be self-assured

A little more brave in all the fun

Sitting pretty on the top of it all

(Though) I’m still afraid, I have this melody

That’s helping me make a change that’s good for me

I, don’t know where this will lead

I don’t know where this will lead

I don’t know where this will lead

But I’ve heard of a land so pretty

Somewhere I could be

© 2023 Songwriter Diaries