This is the third song from Geoffrey Gordon's song cycle, Sonnets from Neruda, setting six sonnets from Cien sonetos de amor (100 Love Sonnets) for mezzo soprano, baritone and piano, in a performance at the Arnold Schönberg Center in Vienna, featuring mezzo soprano Natalia Kawalek and pianist Marcin Koziel, 16 March 2018.

Soneto 44

Sabrás que no te amo y que te amo

puesto que de dos modos es la vida,

la palabra es un ala del silencio,

el fuego tiene una mitad de frío.

Yo te amo para comenzar a amarte,

para recomenzar el infinito

y para no dejar de amarte nunca:

por eso no te amo todavía.

Te amo y no te amo como si tuviera

en mis manos las llaves de la dicha

y un incierto destino desdichado.

Mi amor tiene dos vidas para armarte.

Por eso te amo cuando no te amo

y por eso te amo cuando te amo.

You must know that I do not love and that I love you,

because everything alive has its two sides;

a word is one wing of silence,

fire has its cold half.

I love you in order to begin to love you,

to start infinity again

and never to stop loving you:

that is why I do not love you yet.

I love you, and I do not love you, as if I held

keys in my hand to a future of joy

and a wretched, muddled fate.

My love has two lives, in order to love you.

That is why I love you when I do not love you,

and also why I love you when I do.