Spiritual PTSD

By far my least favorite episode. I decided to continue to honor the spirit of this podcast and go ahead and post it. I basically loose my shit but I have to say I agree with everything I said.

I meant to tell a story of following my mom through the neighborhood when she would be "leaving" my dad. But it turned into processing some of the comments I have received over the years when I try to talk about these subjects.

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It doesn't take much to convince a 7 year old boy that he is called by God to do miracles and cast out demons. In fact if your going to convince someone of that you better do it while they are young!

In this episode I explain how a potentially dangerous situation with a complete stranger in a department store became one of the main events that served as proof that I was born to slay demons and deliver people from satan.

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Growing up with demons, perverts and the looming end of the world was bad enough but add the effects of growing up "American Poor" as I call it, and I was tormented.

In this episode I tell the public humiliation story from a punk ass bully named Clarence and explain the roots of contradictions in my faith and world view.

I break from my normal format of storytelling to discuss where I have been for the last 3 weeks. I've been getting my ass kicked with PTSD based processing of a world pandemic. 

This is a great episode to listen to if you want to get some insight into the mind of someone you love who is struggling with PTSD and COVID-19.

However, I made a commitment to do this podcast at least for 1 year so I'm gonna keep posting. 

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Imagine believing in your religion so much that you wait to have sex till you are married. Millions have followed this practice and that is great but... imagine your first several sex experiences being anal sex. Cause you know that doesn't count as sex!

In this episode I tell the story of a friend that did just that and to this day believes she was a virgin when she got married.

Also, during the recording of this podcast I could not remember the name of another book that came along and created an entire movement. I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris rocked the youth group world. Here is a great doc from that author discussing the book and apologizing for the results it generated for many.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ybYTkkQJw_M

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Some memories haunt me more than others. In this episode I recall a failed forced exorcism on a boy no older than 13. If that wasn't horrific enough I also dragged in my best friend and basically made him participate. 

Listen till the end to hear a phone conversation with that friend discussing his memory of the event.

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I was 19 when I and a few other actual adults took about 14 teenagers ranging from 13-18 to Cambodia and then we smuggled bibles into communist China.

How does a "believer" get to this level of radical action?

Puberty. It's a bitch for all of us but for some of us it is the closest to hell as we ever get. Not only was I a red blooded 12 year old boy just starting puberty but I also had been convinced that you can "receive a demon" every time you have an orgasm from masterbating.

By that logic I should be the single most possessed man ever lived.

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In this episode I tell one of the more embarrassing stories from my radical Christian youth. I later realized this experience lead me to move into an even more intense belief system, ministry and attempted miracles.

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I recall my first christian summer camp. My first summer camp crush and a demon of lust. Oh and seeing a total strangers grown man penis multiple times. You know... all the normal camp stuff.

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