Death is part of life but when someone dies of the same disease I have, I am immediately reminded of my own mortality. I am really working on not being fearful, not even letting my mind go to those places of dread and anxiety especially when I'm not feeling well. I realize that I am blocking my own healing by ruminating on my symptoms actually making those symptoms worse by focusing on them. I am trying to live in a place of ease and acceptance that I am doing the best I can instead of fighting and resisting my MS every step of the way which may be keeping me in this state of illness. I'm a strong believer in what we put our attention on expands so I need to visualize myself healthy before that will actually begin to happen.