In episode #9, Luis L. shares how he's been fighting his whole life. How his problems were a result of an internal conflict. Luis shares how towards the end of his drinking career he was constantly waking up at 6AM from a total blackout thinking: "there's no way I'm going to this again." And by 6PM he had 100 reasons/excuses to pick up the first drink,  setting off the vicious cycle in motion again. Then one day the "mental obsession" with controlling his drinking lifted and he was free.