You are tougher than you think. All the excuses are just a lie your mind is telling you to keep yourself in your comfort zone. Stop with all the negativity, start focusing on change, creating small habits and positivity. Show up and deliver and do it for you. Not for anyone else. It is your decision who you spend time with, how you spend your day, what you do and if you're happy. This is a new day, make it worth it.